The best deceptions.

It's about to be 3AM, and I'm still up. I always find myself not tired around this time. Well school starts on Monday. Oh boyyy. Finals, finals, finals. That basically means no going out until finals are done with. I need to get caught up with some homework before this weekend is over. Damn, I've been waking up around 2 or 3 every day since I got back from my vacation. I feel like a bum. I seriously need to find a job. I sleep hella late, wake up hella late, chill for a bit, then the same routine. Last night wasn't a waste of time though. There were parties, but you know those times when you rather just chill instead of party? Yeah, I had one of those days. EmmaKristine, Markie, Jimmy, and I bought hella snacks at Safeway, and just went back to Kristine and Markie's house to chill and watch a movie. "Whose Your Catty" was coo. Hella funny. Ate hella popcorn with cheese and jalepenos. Haha, got those boys into eating that shit. I had fun even though we didn't really do much.


As I sit here infront of my computer screen, with nothing to do at this time of morning, I find myself wanting to blog. I really don't know what about so I'll just say whatever. Damn, does time go by fast. I hate that word sometimes. Time. You know how they say, "time heals all wounds"? Is that really true? Does it really heal ALL wounds, or make some hurt even more? I found that sometimes, time makes you realize a lot and what you realize can make you hurt more because of time. You wait to long to try to fix the mistakes that you have made, but you're too late. Get me? I don't really know if I make sense. Don't get me wrong though. Time does heal wounds, but I guess not all. Okay. I really don't know what I'm saying. I guess i'm saying that time isn't always the best option. Step up before it's too late.


Ever wish that things weren't so complicating sometimes? We all have that in common. But you know what?Maybe these complications are the best things in life. I once heard, "the thorns on a rose are more beautiful than the rose itself." I guess we're always complaining about the complications and fuck ups, instead of appreciating them. All our mistakes and flaws make us who we are, am I right? And in any situation, the difficulties are what develop the outcome, right? Mistakes are good. Afterall, all the negative thangs are what lead us to the final destination. You get me? Imagine life being so fuckin' easy. You know we all want that sometimes. No drama, no regrets, no mistakes, every thing just be all good. It's not as good as it seems. Usually, we are thankful for all the good things in life, but why not the bad? All the trials and tribulations bring you to the best places. The best things are those worth fighting for, right? Ultimately, I'm saying that you gotta work to get where you wanna go, and to have what you want. You can't just have it like that, you know? The ride in life is pretty much the best part. That's where all the goodshit and badshit happen.


I guess this all leads to relationships. If you want to be with someone, then you have to realize you have to work for it. Don't expect it to be easy because it's never like that. Don't give up just because you're tired of it. Honestly, if you try hard enough, it'll all be worth it in the end. And when you two are both where you want to be, you'll look back and realize, it was worth the fight. All the shit you guys went through, got you to where you wanted to be, am I right? So appreciate the arguements, drama, and mistakes. And don't give up just because it's a bumpy ride. Oh and with the time thing, step up before it's too late.


Don't mind me. It's 4 already. This blog is not making any sense, but I just feel like I needed to vent a little bit. Had a lot on my mind today. Night folks!

"Fantasy is what people want, but reality is what they need."